I'm nervous about the meeting tomorrow. I know why I'm nervous (don't know the person, don't know what to expect, major opportunity to be gained or lost) but I can't seem to get past it. This is going to sound very silly BUT I don't know what to wear.
Now, anyone who knows me knows that I don't care what I wear normally. I find something comfortable and buy half a dozen of them wear them all year. Sorted. Summer? Lose the vest and jumper. Winter? Extra vest and jumper. I only wear trainers because I have ridiculously wide feet ands I hate being uncomfortable. I went to the hairdresser - before we moved off the Island 5 years ago. I really don't care what I wear.
But now, I feel like I need to dress 'for work', since writing is my new job. My few remaining 'work clothes' are for a job either in lecturing or in psychology. Do I turn up looking like a therapist or a lecturer, or do I dress like I normally do? I have a feeling making an effort would be a good thing, because agents are the mediators between the creative process of writing a version of the book, and the end point of hopefully selling a book to a publisher. Publisher = business, ergo, maybe I should dress for business? But then, I would I be representing myself as a writer, because I hate all that suity/smart/ironed stuff.
So, will dressing up make me feel more like a potentially saleable author, or will I just be self-conscious? I know I'm rambling, but I'm really nervous, and I don't get like this very often. I know I'm just focusing on one aspect of the meeting to avoid the actual fear of rejection (I hate analysing myself) but there you go. I'm going to feel so stupid tomorrow, on the train home.
Instead, I'm going to focus on the books. I've got a synopsis of A Baby's Bones and Borrowed Time 2, as well as my willingness to be guided and shown how I can improve Borrowed Time. That's what matters, right?